I saw a guy on the subway today, dressed well and looking well, and he was reading a book about 'God's Shepherds' or something. I wondered why most of the churchy people who aren't totally nuts (they preach about the end times to us on the public trans pretty often) are usually pretty well off. I don't see a lot of 'tweeners. So, my hypothesis is that people who go to church make money.
The next question was, why? Simple: Networking. They go there, meet other relatively decent people, chat, do breakfast, and network their eyes out. They need somebody to do something for them, and they've found just the guy. It's a huge goodwill thing, and I'm wondering if I can get in on a piece of that action.
For those who haven't noticed or never bothered to ask, I'm more or less agnostic, leaning towards atheism. There, I said it. You may balk at me and close your browsers if you must, but you'll just be proving my oft-held belief that religion divides more people that it unites. I'm not a bad person. Much to the contrary, I live very much by several of the 10 Commandments even if I don't think they came here on stone tablets by a guy who walked across a sandbar (check your geologic history). The IDEAS are certainly sound. Getting into spookery and such just never appealed or made sense to me. Anyway, I'm all about doing unto others as you'd have done unto you, not coveting they neighbor's wife (moving quickly on), and not killing anybody. I don't steal, and I don't want to be stolen from (and ladies, you can steal a hug or a kiss, but you have to give it back!).
So, church. I tried this several times. I really did. The closest I got was that H20 thing back in BG, but it still never felt right. I can't have a meaningful conversation with a guy who says he's having a good day cuz god made it happen. SHIT also happens, but nobody blames god for that. Whatever. I strive to meet these other good people who are decent simply BECAUSE, not because they're afraid of the boogeyman or Santa Claus not bringing them anything. But, it seems church is the last resort, unless any of you dear readers would like to reach out and play with me. I'm bored. Aside from working, I play videogames, read, watch movies, eat, shower, sleep...pretty much the usual, but it shouldn't be THIS hard to find decent other people to interact with.
Some have even called me a pessimist for my views on life. Yeah, science is a pretty profound thing to me. Yeah, I'm part of the same decaying compost heap as everything else. And I'm okay with that. When you realize life isn't a gift, but a freak happening, you value it even MORE, because it wasn't given; it was EARNED. Millions of years of evolution. You could have been anything! A tadpole, an amoeba, a dung beetle. But no, you're a human, so stop with your Prozac and your Ritalin and just live life the way you are. You climbed awfully hard up out of that mud to lash yourself to a desk for the rest of your life. Get out. Have fun. Get the endorphins moving. Cuz in the end, there are no promises. There might not be a pot of gold at the end of that rainbow, and you held onto your wants and your desires for too damn long, only to find your guilt and your self-loathing got you nowhere. Get up, get out, go play!